Not the most flattering picture of me, but this is totally our friendship to a T.
Laughing and making fun of each other and just having fun takes a good chunk of time. But most importantly I know that I now have a best friend who I can go to for prayer, advice and accountability. The Lord totally redeemed us and restored our individual lives with Him, and I’ve never felt more peace and joy.
Walking away from the Lord for about eight months was tough on a lot of people, and now that I’m out of it, I can see that it was tough on me especially. Always stressed, sometimes happy and content, worried … that’s no way to live and no way I wanted to spend the rest of my life. I knew in my heart that nothing that I desired would ever come to fruition because of my lack of a walk with the Most High. Realizing that we are not perfect and remembering that we need a Savior and can’t do it alone was one of the most relieving feelings.
I walked with the Lord before, but now being a tad bit older and going through trials on my own and watching my best friend go through things, it makes you grow up and realize that life isn’t a game; just like we were taught as kids. Now that I have seen the things I’ve seen, I don’t desire a walk that is just getting by. I know that being involved and speaking good “Christian-ease” is definitely not going to save me … it rests on my heart and relationship with God.
Desiring to know Him in a deeper, more intimate way is all I want. And I’m so glad that the bestie and I have our own walks with the Lord and can fellowship with one another and talk of all the things that He is showing us and doing in and through us.
She recently moved back to Cali for a bit (Lord willing only a bit), and I know it’s going to be hard on us both, but I’m so excited to see where and how the Lord uses her, and what He has in store for me.
It’ awesome to look back to even a month ago and see how much we were trying to make the lifestyle of the world work for us. But let me be honest: Once you’ve tasted the Lord and you know He is good, you can’t settle for anything less.
Thankfulness doesn’t begin to explain the feelings I have when I think that the Lord saved us just in time, by His stripes.
No one said this Christian walk was going to be a cakewalk, but the Lord did promise to never abandon us.